It doesn’t help that the media has jumped in their new bandwagon of “40 is the new 20.” It is getting to be as difficult on the 40 year olds as it has always been on the younger women. Shows like Cougar Town and women like Madonna, Valarie Bertinelli and Demi Moore don’t help either. All those skinny women of my youth are now skinny women of my late 30’s! This aspect of being a woman sucks.
What really sent me over the edge was a picture that was taken of me last weekend at our family reunion. I was tagged in a picture on Facebook from over the weekend. I am huge. It was heart breaking! I have literally been depressed since I saw that picture. I removed the tag because I didn’t want anyone else to see me like that! So I am hanging it here, in the hall of shame!
I chose JC because on Sunday, my mom said “That is what I would like to see Michelle do. She did really well on Jenny Craig before.” Sunday night Mark asked me what was up, why now? I told him about my turning 40 thing and that I felt like if I turned 40 weighing what I do now, I would wake up the next year and weigh 30 pounds more and 30 pounds more the next year. That is so not what I want. On Monday, Mark brought up JC. I took it as a sign and called on Tuesday. I went in today, and start tomorrow… which happens to be the 15th, which is exactly 17 months till my 40th birthday.
I am not overly excited. I know that I can do it. I have done it before. The keeping it off is the biggest issue. I will admit, I never learned the “lifestyle change” part. I may be eating their food forever. I am probably more cautiously optimistic than I have been before. Maybe I will be excited in the next week or two.
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